A large Waiting game

Waking up after a horrible dream of losing the baby... Sitting up in bed wondering if im still pregnant.... Will i keep it? IS it alive? taking each day agonizing about wether I will have that all too familar feeling. The pop the drip the fear...I can close my eyes and remember that night. Like it was yesterday. And i keep dreaming of it. Fearing it. Day after day I worry am I doing something wrong am i lifting something to heavy. Am i eating enough? is it healthy? I just dont know shit and its driving me apsolutely crazy... Now off to bed